My Compass Rose

proverbs 19:2
desire without knowledge--this fair warning of God leads me to ponder on my pursuit of shadowing blindly. it would be much bbetter to chase medicine with an actual foundation of knowledge. not only this, but hasty feet will miss the way--shoot off too far or short in a blind endeavor.  knowing more now than i did freshman or sophomore year, however, i would say im much more prepared to be a good shadow than before. and i wont be taking a shot in the dark, hurrying before i actually know whats up.

besides that though, i feel like this also touches on unfounded pride. in educational sessions or around other students, essentially, in an extracurricular setting, ive found myself in a position and with an air of arrogance about me thats quite suffocating. i honestly dont know how i breathe in it and its pretty awful. im doing my best to discard it and i honestly think that focusing on gaining as much as i can from the professionals around me without trying to one up any one is the way to go. i DONT need to "already know" things or anything like that. its honestly fine, and no one cares. im the only one who needs to know about the extent of my knowledge.

luckily for me, i have a perfect opportunity to demonstrate a desire for knowledge with humility tomorrow at the AZ BIO expo in scottsdale. lets go--no rushing, all calm, cool, personality turned up with a perfect touch of gracious sweetness. *whew* to God i give all glory and from Him i seek guidance on my conduct. its much better when Gods and knowledge are both there as compasses for the journey motivated by desire, you know.