Constant

proverbs 20:6
so college is actually becoming sort of really scary for me. like today--in five hours of so--ill be in tucson for orientation and thats my chance to make it or break it, it feels like. i mean, its much more than that but still, i dont wanna be the same person i was in high school and i definitely have the opportunity to start changing that old rep tomorrow. so yeah, its actually nervewracking to think about it--especially since i pretty much hadnt thought about it at all until...a few hours eariler when i was packing.

now the reason i bring it up is because with all that anxiety, i needed something to anchor myself with and to find security in. it might seem like the wrong verse for that sort of search and for my need, but in taking note of the many who falsely profess loyalty but end up flaking off, i remember that God never professes love with lying lips.no, hes the real thing whose always there for us. and even tomorrow, i know that.

im going to trust God through tomorrow. first physically by outwardly praying and letting me faith shine, regardless of what people might think and say to me as a result. next izing my faith if asked. those are my steps for sure but i just want to soak in Gods presence and support for me no matter what.  ill always be able to find him right there, not even so far as around the corner, when i need someone.