2-27-2015
James 2:14 NIV
14 What good is it, my brothers and sisters, if someone claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save them?
Works must be the good friend of yasith and true faith will inevitable evoke works. That is what I perceive as the truth of this matter anyhow .
One kind if work i struggle with demonstrating most is that love for my parents who love me so but of whom I can't figure out how to outwardly appreciate in write the right way. There are the things I say and that they say and do but...
And yet I find it perfectly easy to be loving towards others.
May you turn my heart and show me how to love, father God.
Palm 119:11
I have hidden your word in my heart that I might not sin against you
Jeremiah 29:13
You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart
John 14:15
If you love me keep my commands
James 1:12
Blessed is he who perseveres under trial because having stood the test that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.
Friday, February 27, 2015
for joy, your joy
2-26-2015
God, you make me so happy. Joy is constant even in the struggles. I know that you are always with me. I know that i will always how your word to back me up and bring me out of the depths of despair. I know that i really do not get very sad ever because of you. I know that you are my strength in the good times and you are the one who makes my sunrise.
if you love me, keep my commands, you said.psalm119:11
i shall seize life Your way.
because everyday with you and growing in you is a better one than the last <3
here's a toast to my faith which i hope will continue growing--here's to your love and supporting me and pursuing me even when i trip and fall in my faithfulness--here's to becoming a more godly young woman before you.
here's to our relationship and my discipleship.
James 1:22 NIV
22 Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves. Do what it says.
God, you make me so happy. Joy is constant even in the struggles. I know that you are always with me. I know that i will always how your word to back me up and bring me out of the depths of despair. I know that i really do not get very sad ever because of you. I know that you are my strength in the good times and you are the one who makes my sunrise.
if you love me, keep my commands, you said.psalm119:11
i shall seize life Your way.
because everyday with you and growing in you is a better one than the last <3
here's a toast to my faith which i hope will continue growing--here's to your love and supporting me and pursuing me even when i trip and fall in my faithfulness--here's to becoming a more godly young woman before you.
here's to our relationship and my discipleship.
Wednesday, February 25, 2015
onward, march.
2-25-2015
james 1:12 blessed is he who perseveres under trial because having stood the test that person will receive the crown of life which the lord has promised to those who love him.
psalm 119:11 i have hidden your word in my heart that i might not sin against you
john 14:15 if you love me keep my commands
2 timothy 3:16 all scripture is god-breathed and is useful for teaching rebuking correct and training in righteousness
luke 11:9 ask and you will know seek and you will find knock and the door will be opened to you
deuteronomy 10:16
jeremiah 29:13 you will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart
i'm working on building my arsenal
it seems like im doing an average job
but it's actually super duper exciting as i'm learning more of your Word and it makes me so happy to know that i'm making progress in this because for the longest time, nothing would stick. absolutely nothing.
now though. i ought to be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to become angry. that means that when others converse with me or even if they say nothing at all, rather than become angry at some irritable said, give them the benefit of the doubt for... ignorance, let's say. rather than scorning them, take a split second to pray for them. that is so much better.
now i've baked brownies for his birthday. not procrastinating and not binging? well i havent binged so that's a start. as for procrastinating, well i've finished the fyp description and sent it off to get checked by him before i make it permanent. also good. seems like we're well on our way to a better less stressed more God glorifying me.
James 1:19 NIV
19 My dear brothers and sisters, take note of this: Everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry,
james 1:12 blessed is he who perseveres under trial because having stood the test that person will receive the crown of life which the lord has promised to those who love him.
psalm 119:11 i have hidden your word in my heart that i might not sin against you
john 14:15 if you love me keep my commands
2 timothy 3:16 all scripture is god-breathed and is useful for teaching rebuking correct and training in righteousness
luke 11:9 ask and you will know seek and you will find knock and the door will be opened to you
deuteronomy 10:16
jeremiah 29:13 you will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart
i'm working on building my arsenal
it seems like im doing an average job
but it's actually super duper exciting as i'm learning more of your Word and it makes me so happy to know that i'm making progress in this because for the longest time, nothing would stick. absolutely nothing.
now though. i ought to be quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to become angry. that means that when others converse with me or even if they say nothing at all, rather than become angry at some irritable said, give them the benefit of the doubt for... ignorance, let's say. rather than scorning them, take a split second to pray for them. that is so much better.
now i've baked brownies for his birthday. not procrastinating and not binging? well i havent binged so that's a start. as for procrastinating, well i've finished the fyp description and sent it off to get checked by him before i make it permanent. also good. seems like we're well on our way to a better less stressed more God glorifying me.
Tuesday, February 24, 2015
your honor and glory
2-24-2015
it just might be that my favorite book of the bible is James
for james 1:12 bless is he who perseveres under trial because having stood the test that person will receive the crown of life that the lord has promised to those who love him.
psalm 119:11 i have hidden your word in my heart that i might not sin against you
john 14:!5 if you love me, keep my commands
you are beautiful and you give what i didn't even know existed. i am happy beyond my own comprehension and it is through you alone that i have hope for anything. you provide me with the power to be invincible and complete tasks that none other would dream of. i have the courage to go out into danger and offer myself up to you as a living sacrifice for whatever work you deem me worthy of the honor which working in your service shall always be.
you are constant even where i am a flaky sinner, bound to trip and fall at some point or another. you maintain goodness forever, and i can always trust in your great goodness.
in the next day i commit myself to getting at least 8 hours of sleep, baking brownies for ian's birthday, and being productive for real. with a clear mind and sleep, i aim to glorify you more in my everyday activities. i also pledge to eating like... a normal amount of food at night :3 for lent, give up trashy binging. with the lord on your side, you can definitely do it.
James 1:17 NIV
17 Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.
it just might be that my favorite book of the bible is James
for james 1:12 bless is he who perseveres under trial because having stood the test that person will receive the crown of life that the lord has promised to those who love him.
psalm 119:11 i have hidden your word in my heart that i might not sin against you
john 14:!5 if you love me, keep my commands
you are beautiful and you give what i didn't even know existed. i am happy beyond my own comprehension and it is through you alone that i have hope for anything. you provide me with the power to be invincible and complete tasks that none other would dream of. i have the courage to go out into danger and offer myself up to you as a living sacrifice for whatever work you deem me worthy of the honor which working in your service shall always be.
you are constant even where i am a flaky sinner, bound to trip and fall at some point or another. you maintain goodness forever, and i can always trust in your great goodness.
in the next day i commit myself to getting at least 8 hours of sleep, baking brownies for ian's birthday, and being productive for real. with a clear mind and sleep, i aim to glorify you more in my everyday activities. i also pledge to eating like... a normal amount of food at night :3 for lent, give up trashy binging. with the lord on your side, you can definitely do it.
a message for me
2-23-2015
this sounds like something specifically for me.
james 1:12 blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord promised to those who love him.
oh.my.gosh. life is kind of hard sometimes, but you make everything work out. just keep floating. what am i going to do for someone that's nice tomorrow.... text some of your friends and just say hey. let them know you haven't forgotten about them, for one.
i hold that everything will work out according to your will. there are lots of cool great incredibly glorious things that will be accomplished in your name and according to your design. next year, i WILL find a place to live. you will take care of it.
matthew 6:30
if that is how God clothes the grass of the field which is here today and tomorrow is thrown in the fire, will he not much more clothe you--you of little faith?
psalm 119: 11
i have hidden your word in my heart that i might not sin against you.
this is necessary.
it's time that i rebuild my arsenal of the Word.
i crave it.
i require it for sustenance.
the Word is my strength and power.
from you I draw my soul and life force.
James 1:12 NIV
12 Blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because, having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord has promised to those who love him.
this sounds like something specifically for me.
james 1:12 blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because having stood the test, that person will receive the crown of life that the Lord promised to those who love him.
oh.my.gosh. life is kind of hard sometimes, but you make everything work out. just keep floating. what am i going to do for someone that's nice tomorrow.... text some of your friends and just say hey. let them know you haven't forgotten about them, for one.
i hold that everything will work out according to your will. there are lots of cool great incredibly glorious things that will be accomplished in your name and according to your design. next year, i WILL find a place to live. you will take care of it.
matthew 6:30
if that is how God clothes the grass of the field which is here today and tomorrow is thrown in the fire, will he not much more clothe you--you of little faith?
psalm 119: 11
i have hidden your word in my heart that i might not sin against you.
this is necessary.
it's time that i rebuild my arsenal of the Word.
i crave it.
i require it for sustenance.
the Word is my strength and power.
from you I draw my soul and life force.
Sunday, February 22, 2015
float
2-22-2015
by the lord i can grow in him and in my life and everything will be ok. even though things can be rough, i will trust in the lord and just float.
that's the thing about making it through all of the stresses of life. learning to float with whatever i get is the only way.
float. let the problems dissipate and just keep floating.
James 1:5 NIV
5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you.
by the lord i can grow in him and in my life and everything will be ok. even though things can be rough, i will trust in the lord and just float.
that's the thing about making it through all of the stresses of life. learning to float with whatever i get is the only way.
float. let the problems dissipate and just keep floating.
ok
some day before
trials of many kind bring greater strength after the fact. when i face struggles in college, they will grow me for later times. there will always be things to preoccupy myself over, and i will probably never free myself completely of things that could conceivably cause worry, but what i do have is You. as a disciple, i'll always be ok.
strength in trouble. floating over trouble.
James 1:2 NIV
2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds,
trials of many kind bring greater strength after the fact. when i face struggles in college, they will grow me for later times. there will always be things to preoccupy myself over, and i will probably never free myself completely of things that could conceivably cause worry, but what i do have is You. as a disciple, i'll always be ok.
strength in trouble. floating over trouble.
constant
from another random date
Christ is constant and in him I can always trust.
this is a fact i can always count on. You will always be there. and if i love you, i will keep your commands. i will keep your word close to my heart so that i might not sin against you.
today yesterday and forever more i will keep to God and learn and grow. nothing in life will be too much for me to overcome with you, my king.
Hebrews 13:8 NIV
8 Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.
Christ is constant and in him I can always trust.
this is a fact i can always count on. You will always be there. and if i love you, i will keep your commands. i will keep your word close to my heart so that i might not sin against you.
today yesterday and forever more i will keep to God and learn and grow. nothing in life will be too much for me to overcome with you, my king.
cared for
from some belated date
There is nothing to worry about where money is concerned because the Lord my God will always financially provide. He will never leave me alone. As long as I pursue him in my day to day life and in my path and goals and dreams, I shall not be left wanting of anything. He will care for my needs. And in this happiness might be found. Where there is no constant wanting of more than has been given and no lack of satisfaction with what I have already been given.
it's said that we can only have one master. money or the lord. and serving one means hating the other. there's only one way and not both.
for me, i think that it means to never be afraid of what God puts on my heart to pursue. if he says go, then i should go and not shy from going abroad to another country in pursuit of his work. that is a high honor. to be chosen for such a purpose by the lord is grand. you don't have to be afraid to go outside your comfort zone. he will take care of you no matter where you are.
that's my practical application of this, because if God really wants me to explore eastern africa or the middle east as a medic, well then. or even west africa. turkey? the ukraine? there are a lot of places in the world where medical services are not readily available. places where i could conceivably make a difference if i wasn't so scared to leave the country. i mean, it's better now that i've gone to peru. i feel certainly more at ease about leaving. but a permanent residence abroad is still--no matter though. i must go where God sends me and i must continue to keep an open mind about where that might be. the thing is that even though money is obviously better if i serve in the united states, that's not the point. if i have skills that are needed elsewhere, well then elsewhere i must go.
Hebrews 13:5 NIV
5 Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said, “Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.”
There is nothing to worry about where money is concerned because the Lord my God will always financially provide. He will never leave me alone. As long as I pursue him in my day to day life and in my path and goals and dreams, I shall not be left wanting of anything. He will care for my needs. And in this happiness might be found. Where there is no constant wanting of more than has been given and no lack of satisfaction with what I have already been given.
it's said that we can only have one master. money or the lord. and serving one means hating the other. there's only one way and not both.
for me, i think that it means to never be afraid of what God puts on my heart to pursue. if he says go, then i should go and not shy from going abroad to another country in pursuit of his work. that is a high honor. to be chosen for such a purpose by the lord is grand. you don't have to be afraid to go outside your comfort zone. he will take care of you no matter where you are.
that's my practical application of this, because if God really wants me to explore eastern africa or the middle east as a medic, well then. or even west africa. turkey? the ukraine? there are a lot of places in the world where medical services are not readily available. places where i could conceivably make a difference if i wasn't so scared to leave the country. i mean, it's better now that i've gone to peru. i feel certainly more at ease about leaving. but a permanent residence abroad is still--no matter though. i must go where God sends me and i must continue to keep an open mind about where that might be. the thing is that even though money is obviously better if i serve in the united states, that's not the point. if i have skills that are needed elsewhere, well then elsewhere i must go.
Thursday, February 19, 2015
to see the Lord and know
2-18-2015
a clarity is required in order to become acquainted with the Lord.
there is purity in my pursuits, but i think there is more to be found. i have work to do.
i also am at a loss as to how i should go about with some of the peripheral aspects of my life. the things that matter but don't. i really.... there's a lot that could possibly go wrong as far as how my sensibilities could lead me astray.
that's a friendship that could go sour if i'm not careful and i don't want that. that's the last thing i want. i treasure it too much now. i wish it could be easier to be me casually. it's not.
but i know that God you have things planned. my patience is required.
i will try.
psalm 27:14
wait for the Lord; be strong and take courage and wait for the lord.
you make all things work together for my good.....
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14 Make every effort to live in peace with everyone and to be holy; without holiness no one will see the Lord.
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there is purity in my pursuits, but i think there is more to be found. i have work to do.
i also am at a loss as to how i should go about with some of the peripheral aspects of my life. the things that matter but don't. i really.... there's a lot that could possibly go wrong as far as how my sensibilities could lead me astray.
that's a friendship that could go sour if i'm not careful and i don't want that. that's the last thing i want. i treasure it too much now. i wish it could be easier to be me casually. it's not.
but i know that God you have things planned. my patience is required.
i will try.
psalm 27:14
wait for the Lord; be strong and take courage and wait for the lord.
you make all things work together for my good.....
growing pains
2-17-2015
everything that represents an obstacle as i'm seeking to grow in you and to become more like you--throw it away. we should fix our eyes on God and with determination, run straight for him and towards all that he represents.
the lord is my savior and apart from him i shall not want. there is nothing beyond him that i need and through him i have all things. he gives me strength to continue even when i have none, and it is through him that i know myself.
surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses, i must say that i must become more aware of the fact that i am a living testimony to the existence of God.
the main thing is that i'm working on prayers because praying is strong and really moves mountains. this i didn't recognize enough in full as a child. it's a shame that such was the case.
what do i think i can grow in most--continuing to pursue you through both dialogue and memory of scripture
for all scripture is god-breather, and is useful for teaching rebuking correcting and training in righteousness.
if you love me, keep my commands
i have hidden your word in my heart that i might not sin against you
onward i march towards you
Hebrews 12:1-2 NIV
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1 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, 2 fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross, scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.
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everything that represents an obstacle as i'm seeking to grow in you and to become more like you--throw it away. we should fix our eyes on God and with determination, run straight for him and towards all that he represents.
the lord is my savior and apart from him i shall not want. there is nothing beyond him that i need and through him i have all things. he gives me strength to continue even when i have none, and it is through him that i know myself.
surrounded by a great cloud of witnesses, i must say that i must become more aware of the fact that i am a living testimony to the existence of God.
the main thing is that i'm working on prayers because praying is strong and really moves mountains. this i didn't recognize enough in full as a child. it's a shame that such was the case.
what do i think i can grow in most--continuing to pursue you through both dialogue and memory of scripture
for all scripture is god-breather, and is useful for teaching rebuking correcting and training in righteousness.
if you love me, keep my commands
i have hidden your word in my heart that i might not sin against you
onward i march towards you
Monday, February 16, 2015
the invisible
2-16-2015
faith is the key to the Lord and in order to be on the right side of this pursuit, i am in charge of earnestly seeking God. wholeheartedly, i must desire to know him and to be more like him. i must believe in his existence first and foremost even if i cannot see him, and i must be willing to sacrifice for that faith. persecution is imminent in the line of a disciple's work. it's scary but it's also a path that's of the highest order. the least will become the greatest and whoever dies will take his life and save it. it's counter-intuitive but it's also sensible. tiene sentido asi.
i think i might be choosing some strange things for my life, but in the end everything will be ok. having faith means being ok with uncertainty, because there's so much that i cannot see, and yet it's there. staring back at me plain as day.
john 14:15
if you love me, keep my commands
psalm 119:11
i have hidden your word in my heart that i might not sin against you.
2 timothy 3:16
all scripture is god breathed, and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting, and training in righteousness.
Hebrews 11:6 NIV
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6 And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.
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i think i might be choosing some strange things for my life, but in the end everything will be ok. having faith means being ok with uncertainty, because there's so much that i cannot see, and yet it's there. staring back at me plain as day.
john 14:15
if you love me, keep my commands
psalm 119:11
i have hidden your word in my heart that i might not sin against you.
2 timothy 3:16
all scripture is god breathed, and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting, and training in righteousness.
Sunday, February 15, 2015
go in faith
2-15-2015
faith's definition. that's true. believing it before we see it. this is faith and knowing that You will take care of us even before we realize that care. before things are perfectly at ease and being ok with that because of the comfort we receive from knowing your power intimately.
i have faith in this semester and week and my future. i can be sure that no matter how sleep deprived i happen to get, you will be there for me and make things beautiful and blossom. i know that there is nothing to fear because of you.
no, go and conquer the world in His glory, knowing full well that he has given you everything you need.
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1 Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.
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i have faith in this semester and week and my future. i can be sure that no matter how sleep deprived i happen to get, you will be there for me and make things beautiful and blossom. i know that there is nothing to fear because of you.
no, go and conquer the world in His glory, knowing full well that he has given you everything you need.
empathy sought for
2-14-2015
You know our every struggle in life from having struggled yourself and in that there is true empathy. In supplication to you, I will find all that I could possibly need in my times of celebration and need, both.
Sometimes I'm not totally sure what I need and I just know that this is not it. There is more than the life I am currently living. And, I would say that today and these days lately, I've been seeing you ever more clearly in terms of understanding what it means to wait and being patient about it. I understand and know, of course, but all the same, it's hard. And, I don't know that it makes waiting and patience any easier. Someday.
I don't know why I care or what the matter is with that. But sometimes someone who is in the physical life that I live who recognizes the same kinds of things I go through daily would be nice. A best friend who's on par with me and can keep up but also who challenges me and makes me better. I miss Hamilton. There were a lot of people like me there. Well, maybe not a ton that I clicked with, but there was at least one person who was good and that I knew was on the same level as me or better and that went through many of the same journeys as I did during the course of the four years. I don't see anything like what I'm looking for in him, but I know there was friendship and I miss that here. I'm not sure that I can find the same here.
But for now, I am going to make the most of every second that you give me to do great things in your name as an undergraduate student. I'm going to work hard and shine brightly. And somehow, the details will work themselves out. You take care of me.
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15 For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin. 16 Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.
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Sometimes I'm not totally sure what I need and I just know that this is not it. There is more than the life I am currently living. And, I would say that today and these days lately, I've been seeing you ever more clearly in terms of understanding what it means to wait and being patient about it. I understand and know, of course, but all the same, it's hard. And, I don't know that it makes waiting and patience any easier. Someday.
I don't know why I care or what the matter is with that. But sometimes someone who is in the physical life that I live who recognizes the same kinds of things I go through daily would be nice. A best friend who's on par with me and can keep up but also who challenges me and makes me better. I miss Hamilton. There were a lot of people like me there. Well, maybe not a ton that I clicked with, but there was at least one person who was good and that I knew was on the same level as me or better and that went through many of the same journeys as I did during the course of the four years. I don't see anything like what I'm looking for in him, but I know there was friendship and I miss that here. I'm not sure that I can find the same here.
But for now, I am going to make the most of every second that you give me to do great things in your name as an undergraduate student. I'm going to work hard and shine brightly. And somehow, the details will work themselves out. You take care of me.
Saturday, February 14, 2015
day-to-day
on behalf of 2-13-2015
the word of God pierces to my core and my very being. i'm not who i am without it or without him, and it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart--that is, it alters my course and reminds me of itself in my day to day. it is a companion that speaks to me and shapes me. that is its power.
everything works out for Your greater good. this, i embrace.
i'm not sure if i'm on track for growing in you, but i know that i'm dialoguing with you more consistently than before. it's not meaningless and when we talk i bare my heart and soul. i consider everything.
i need to do something about the conflict between my sister and mom. somehow, i have a role to play in smoothing things over and bringing harmony. for this i pray most fervently, and for the prayer list. i think it's one of the better things i've done yet for my spiritual growth.
Hebrews 4:12 NIV
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12 For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.
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everything works out for Your greater good. this, i embrace.
i'm not sure if i'm on track for growing in you, but i know that i'm dialoguing with you more consistently than before. it's not meaningless and when we talk i bare my heart and soul. i consider everything.
i need to do something about the conflict between my sister and mom. somehow, i have a role to play in smoothing things over and bringing harmony. for this i pray most fervently, and for the prayer list. i think it's one of the better things i've done yet for my spiritual growth.
gracious grace
on behalf of 2-12-2015
grace is what i receive yet do not deserve. i needed this verse and the grace of God was definitely with me when i went about my life yesterday night and today as well. last night, i knew that i would have to work hard and also with relative speed if i was going to finish my essay prior to conferencing with my english instructor. i didn't end up finishing the essay. just mostly, and having enough to work with during a conference. and i ended up having to work on it this morning as well. the whole experience was sleep-depriving and, honestly, stressful. i was keeping tabs on time a lot. and with the tucson high science fair, it didn't really help much. but Christ was with me. i was extra cognizant of time, but not freaking out. and even though i was definitely late for chemistry, because my english conference was at the UITS bldg which is quite far from chemistry, even though i was ALMOST late for the conference itself, even though i was DEFINITELY late for the MIS zipperman scholars meet the major event, even though i don't really know how the data for the last s-LCM experiment will turn out till i see it tomorrow morning and analyze, even though i will probably need to redo something.
but you make everything glorious. and i am Yours.
2timothy3:16
all scripture is God breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness
john 14:15
if you love me, keep my commands
psalm 119:11
i have hidden your word in my heart that i might not sin against you
Philemon 1:25 NIV
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25 The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ be with your spirit.
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grace is what i receive yet do not deserve. i needed this verse and the grace of God was definitely with me when i went about my life yesterday night and today as well. last night, i knew that i would have to work hard and also with relative speed if i was going to finish my essay prior to conferencing with my english instructor. i didn't end up finishing the essay. just mostly, and having enough to work with during a conference. and i ended up having to work on it this morning as well. the whole experience was sleep-depriving and, honestly, stressful. i was keeping tabs on time a lot. and with the tucson high science fair, it didn't really help much. but Christ was with me. i was extra cognizant of time, but not freaking out. and even though i was definitely late for chemistry, because my english conference was at the UITS bldg which is quite far from chemistry, even though i was ALMOST late for the conference itself, even though i was DEFINITELY late for the MIS zipperman scholars meet the major event, even though i don't really know how the data for the last s-LCM experiment will turn out till i see it tomorrow morning and analyze, even though i will probably need to redo something.
but you make everything glorious. and i am Yours.
2timothy3:16
all scripture is God breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness
john 14:15
if you love me, keep my commands
psalm 119:11
i have hidden your word in my heart that i might not sin against you
Thursday, February 12, 2015
when sharing is truly caring
2-11-2015
we deserve all the punishment in the world. we should never in a million years receive eternal life. and yet, because of You and Your love, i magically have this opportunity to be reborn and love and become reflective of you, to have a relationship with you and to be filled with the holy spirit. this is a gift that is known to too few in the world, but i have a mission. to spread the word and share the good news and to help people to understand the glory and beauty of grace. what is grace in the first place. what is sin in the first place. that we are such broken and shattered pieces that require repair and a savior. that's honestly the biggest hurdle. i don't think that it's easy for people to reconcile with their own faults.
i've seen this clearly as i encounter others. there are cool people who i like that live in arbol. they're people who i find cool to hang out with, but i don't necessarily agree with their life practices or their particular life stylistic decisions. yet, at the same time, i generally view them as respectable people, but i know that they don't know you, and that makes me sad, to be honest. but now, i've been made aware of that fact that they are in need of You and maybe somehow i am to be used for the purpose of revealing you to them? to be sure, this will happen at some point. the question, i suppose, would be more like when? anyhow, i will strive for you. to be more like you. because you came to me to save me. you embraced me while i was still lost. and in that same way, i have this obligation to embrace others while they are lost and show them what it means to be a disciple, and why that matters. somehow i will contribute to your kingdom in this endeavor!
2 timothy 3:16
all scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting, and training in righteousness.
john 14:15
if you love me, keep my commands
Titus 3:5 NIV
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5 he saved us, not because of righteous things we had done, but because of his mercy. He saved us through the washing of rebirth and renewal by the Holy Spirit,
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i've seen this clearly as i encounter others. there are cool people who i like that live in arbol. they're people who i find cool to hang out with, but i don't necessarily agree with their life practices or their particular life stylistic decisions. yet, at the same time, i generally view them as respectable people, but i know that they don't know you, and that makes me sad, to be honest. but now, i've been made aware of that fact that they are in need of You and maybe somehow i am to be used for the purpose of revealing you to them? to be sure, this will happen at some point. the question, i suppose, would be more like when? anyhow, i will strive for you. to be more like you. because you came to me to save me. you embraced me while i was still lost. and in that same way, i have this obligation to embrace others while they are lost and show them what it means to be a disciple, and why that matters. somehow i will contribute to your kingdom in this endeavor!
2 timothy 3:16
all scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting, and training in righteousness.
john 14:15
if you love me, keep my commands
sword of the spirit
on behalf of 2-10-2015
2 Timothy 3:16 NIV
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16 All Scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting and training in righteousness,
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Scripture is the key to knowing right from wrong and i can say that is definitely something useful. the word is the sword with which sin can be combatted against. it is a powerful tool for growing in Christ. God-breathed. that means of the Lord and holy in nature. pure. good. teaching, rebuking, correcting, and training in righteousness. this gives me hope of my own potential for righteousness. Christ is my righteousness and i do have the option and choice of knowing him more and loving more and growing to be more reflective of him. teaching, to show others his light and glory and what it means to live a life for Christ. the word is key in this and i've seen it with the bridge of romans 6:23. for the wages of sin is death, but the gift of God is eternal life in Christ. rebuking. this means that when another brother or sister has gone astray, love and fellowship requires that we call them out in kindness with a reminder of your instructions for how we ought to glorify your name. correcting goes along this line. my question would be the precise distinction between rebuking and correcting, though.
2 timothy 3:16
all scripture is God-breathed and is useful for teaching, rebuking, correcting, and training in righteousness,
john 14:15
if you love me, keep my commands.
i have an obligation to archive Your word as a disciple.
i've been failing miserably at this. in theory and concept, i'm familiar with what you stand for, but once the verses come out, i'm woefully lost.
i have a desire to learn, but i don't know if my brain can do it. actually, i KNOW my brain can. the question and problem, really, is the laziness of my mind to apply myself to learning. but it's important and i know that in my heart. and so i will try my very hardest. progress will happen.
Tuesday, February 10, 2015
i hope
2-9-2015
despite the difficulty of this day in that i squandered time in the weekend for pleasure and fun, i am attempting to compensate with work now and i feel that i have more or less done the necessary work at this time. though sleep will be lacking under the assumption that i do actually wish to complete the calcium imaging tomorrow, i am most pleased with the work that i've been given in the lab and i appreciate the opportunity to grow and be useful.
i hope lord, that you approve of my work.
i hope lord, that i never miss another bible study this year.
i hope lord, that i learn my lesson and spend my weekends more carefully.
i hope lord, that i get more sleep during the rest of this semester than today and than this week seems likely to turn out.
i am glad that i went to church anyways yesterday.
i am glad that i am yours.
may the neuro exam pass according to your will.
2 Timothy 2:15 NIV
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15 Do your best to present yourself to God as one approved, a worker who does not need to be ashamed and who correctly handles the word of truth.
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i hope lord, that you approve of my work.
i hope lord, that i never miss another bible study this year.
i hope lord, that i learn my lesson and spend my weekends more carefully.
i hope lord, that i get more sleep during the rest of this semester than today and than this week seems likely to turn out.
i am glad that i went to church anyways yesterday.
i am glad that i am yours.
may the neuro exam pass according to your will.
Sunday, February 8, 2015
discipline as a disciple
2-8-2015
discipline. i usually have a good amount of it, but this weekend i've been lacking. Lord, i pray that you would revive me with focus. for in the coming week, it's more important than ever that i maintain strength of academic discipline for the completion of studying and for the sustenance of my academic career. i depend on it and i know. there will not be messing around or procrastination. i cannot allow for myself to mess around and make some substantial mistake.
Lord, may i be bold in rejecting invitations that will detract from the harsh love and self-discipline that i currently require. may you give me the courage to choose work over play. and may it all glorify you.
sometimes it's hard to go to clinics. to lab parties. to church. to buy groceries. to view houses. and to finish my work.
but i'm a student. i have a particular set of goals. and if i'm going to get anywhere close to it, i have to do my share of the work. play isn't going to happen this next weekend. i can't play and work. the saying is work hard play hard. if i haven't worked hard enough, then the play can't come yet. priorities, you're teaching me. and i need to set them straight so i can return to the bliss of many sleepy hours.
2 Timothy 1:7 NIV
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7 For the Spirit God gave us does not make us timid, but gives us power, love and self-discipline.
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Lord, may i be bold in rejecting invitations that will detract from the harsh love and self-discipline that i currently require. may you give me the courage to choose work over play. and may it all glorify you.
sometimes it's hard to go to clinics. to lab parties. to church. to buy groceries. to view houses. and to finish my work.
but i'm a student. i have a particular set of goals. and if i'm going to get anywhere close to it, i have to do my share of the work. play isn't going to happen this next weekend. i can't play and work. the saying is work hard play hard. if i haven't worked hard enough, then the play can't come yet. priorities, you're teaching me. and i need to set them straight so i can return to the bliss of many sleepy hours.
Christ is
on behalf of 2-7-2015
Christ is everything that saves me and makes me whole. Christ is the light and guards me against the darkness. Christ is the one who teaches me to defend myself in times of need. Christ.
My righteousness is Christ and i have none without Him. Christ is the good in me. Christ is my king to whom I belong first and foremost and alone. To serve any other would be to malign myself.
There are a lot of things that I could freak out about, but I really shouldn't do that. It's just bad for everything because Christ is in control. There is nothing to fear or fret over because of him. He will make all things work together for my good. Be it in school or at work. This i know and trust and am glad for.
For, when God looks upon me, He sees Christ--white as snow--and my sins are wiped clean off my slate.
My obligations. Life is unusually scary this week, but you will help me to take care of it, Lord. I know you will.
Have peace.
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5 For there is one God and one mediator between God and mankind, the man Christ Jesus,
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My righteousness is Christ and i have none without Him. Christ is the good in me. Christ is my king to whom I belong first and foremost and alone. To serve any other would be to malign myself.
There are a lot of things that I could freak out about, but I really shouldn't do that. It's just bad for everything because Christ is in control. There is nothing to fear or fret over because of him. He will make all things work together for my good. Be it in school or at work. This i know and trust and am glad for.
For, when God looks upon me, He sees Christ--white as snow--and my sins are wiped clean off my slate.
My obligations. Life is unusually scary this week, but you will help me to take care of it, Lord. I know you will.
Have peace.
Friday, February 6, 2015
always you
2-6-2015
i should hope that in my actions, You can be glorified. this weekend, i have so many things lined up... and honestly, i have no clue when my homework is going to get done ): it's kind of ridiculous. right now, i think i should be sleeping if i don't want to die tomorrow during the clinic. or if i don't want to fall asleep during the lab party. i don't know how it's going to go especially since he's coming, but then like she wants to come too. and i think that they should just suck it up and come now that they're part of the lab, but they never do D: it'd be way more fun if they just came since they're like part of the group now! but idk. it's also all i ever talk about and it's probably starting to get unnerving. i don't want to be annoying, but i'm just so excited about the lab all the time. like i literally go everyday and i don't even think i'm there as many hours as i should hope and it's to an almost problematic level. whenever i'm not in class and it's during regular working hours, i'm there. that's just how it is for me. it's my heart and soul. and i want desperately to advance the projects and results.
i pray everything in your name that it might come about in some way that pleases you. i have come to understand as i've been growing that things might not turn out the way i hope or plan, but it will be the way that you plan and that matters more. i can be ok with that. i might not understand it, but eventually, it might possibly become apparent why some one thing or another has come to pass.
grace. it's my receipt of that which i absolutely do not deserve. i have my lab. they wow me beyond my imagination and i can't believe what my life would be like now without them. i'm in love with the science and the learning, and it makes me sad when i don't know as much as i should or could. things have changed for me as i've gotten deeper into the work. i have new friends who care and want to hang out with me all the time. it's incredible and thrilling and mind blowing and i love that too. a relationship with you. wow. how lost i should be without it. my professors and mentors. i'm looking for new mentors now as some dynamics have changed from my original plan.... but that's fine. i know that when the time comes next year, you'll help me work my life out. i won't worry. you'll take care of me and my future, to be sure.
as long as i focus on you. so on sunday, no matter what, go to church, self. God always.
2 Thessalonians 1:12 NIV
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12 We pray this so that the name of our Lord Jesus may be glorified in you, and you in him, according to the grace of our God and the Lord Jesus Christ.
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i pray everything in your name that it might come about in some way that pleases you. i have come to understand as i've been growing that things might not turn out the way i hope or plan, but it will be the way that you plan and that matters more. i can be ok with that. i might not understand it, but eventually, it might possibly become apparent why some one thing or another has come to pass.
grace. it's my receipt of that which i absolutely do not deserve. i have my lab. they wow me beyond my imagination and i can't believe what my life would be like now without them. i'm in love with the science and the learning, and it makes me sad when i don't know as much as i should or could. things have changed for me as i've gotten deeper into the work. i have new friends who care and want to hang out with me all the time. it's incredible and thrilling and mind blowing and i love that too. a relationship with you. wow. how lost i should be without it. my professors and mentors. i'm looking for new mentors now as some dynamics have changed from my original plan.... but that's fine. i know that when the time comes next year, you'll help me work my life out. i won't worry. you'll take care of me and my future, to be sure.
as long as i focus on you. so on sunday, no matter what, go to church, self. God always.
Thursday, February 5, 2015
thankfully praying
2-5-2015
just praise to your name for the beauty of each day and the joy that each one holds. the days are like little capsules filled with grand surprises for me of the beautiful work that will reveal your name and spirit. more importantly, that which will reveal your promises!^^
continually praying is sometimes difficult to remember, but having a list of things to pray for as each week progresses seems like it has been a good way for me to keep track of the many things that happen and the people around me that i care about and who i should always try to follow spiritually and to support spiritually. it's necessary to pray when things are good and when things aren't so good and in this practice, i think i will learn much about how to dialogue with you. i know though, that even seemingly bad circumstances have merit and that you will teach me out of them.
i think this happened just yesterday as i was slipping into a sort of complacency. but in the quiz that i messed up on so badly, you definitely helped me to remember the importance of reading through my professor's emails COMPLETELY. and to keep a slightly higher profile tab on the homework and balance. that's evidently crucial as well.
and if i am rejoicing in everything, then people will truly see that your joy is within me, because that's unique to your disciples. may you continue to instill within me a true joy for You and for life thanks to comfort in your designs and power. onward, i go :D
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 NIV
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16 Rejoice always, 17 pray continually, 18 give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus.
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continually praying is sometimes difficult to remember, but having a list of things to pray for as each week progresses seems like it has been a good way for me to keep track of the many things that happen and the people around me that i care about and who i should always try to follow spiritually and to support spiritually. it's necessary to pray when things are good and when things aren't so good and in this practice, i think i will learn much about how to dialogue with you. i know though, that even seemingly bad circumstances have merit and that you will teach me out of them.
i think this happened just yesterday as i was slipping into a sort of complacency. but in the quiz that i messed up on so badly, you definitely helped me to remember the importance of reading through my professor's emails COMPLETELY. and to keep a slightly higher profile tab on the homework and balance. that's evidently crucial as well.
and if i am rejoicing in everything, then people will truly see that your joy is within me, because that's unique to your disciples. may you continue to instill within me a true joy for You and for life thanks to comfort in your designs and power. onward, i go :D
Wednesday, February 4, 2015
zero fear
2-4-2015
Thessalonians 4:16 NIV
16 For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first.
if there's anything to be sure it is that when Christ comes there will be an enormous celebration and it will be clear that our savior has returned for us. but until that time, one might ask that we lead our lives in the same way, discipline vigorously for the lord and fishing whenever we can.
to be a disciple calls for certain standards. today I feel like I failed in some respects as I faltered in remembering some things for span449H. but I know Lord that focus comes from you and that with you I can recover myself. not only that, but I can be certain of your assistance in pulling things together. I'm not too far away from where I should hope to be. in light of that, I think that everything will be okay on my own. not only this, but the word is that God is good and in him I can be sure that I always have him with me.
this happens from time to time. I've get this before with a slip up. but luckily, this is the easy to fix kind. considering that my past slips have been with tests instead, this is nothing. a little quiz? I have the rest of the semester and my exams and research paper to make it up. and you, lord I know you're on my side and by my side. with you around there's nothing to worry about.
zero fear for the Lord is here.
Thessalonians 4:16 NIV
16 For the Lord himself will come down from heaven, with a loud command, with the voice of the archangel and with the trumpet call of God, and the dead in Christ will rise first.
if there's anything to be sure it is that when Christ comes there will be an enormous celebration and it will be clear that our savior has returned for us. but until that time, one might ask that we lead our lives in the same way, discipline vigorously for the lord and fishing whenever we can.
to be a disciple calls for certain standards. today I feel like I failed in some respects as I faltered in remembering some things for span449H. but I know Lord that focus comes from you and that with you I can recover myself. not only that, but I can be certain of your assistance in pulling things together. I'm not too far away from where I should hope to be. in light of that, I think that everything will be okay on my own. not only this, but the word is that God is good and in him I can be sure that I always have him with me.
this happens from time to time. I've get this before with a slip up. but luckily, this is the easy to fix kind. considering that my past slips have been with tests instead, this is nothing. a little quiz? I have the rest of the semester and my exams and research paper to make it up. and you, lord I know you're on my side and by my side. with you around there's nothing to worry about.
zero fear for the Lord is here.
Tuesday, February 3, 2015
finding You
2-3-2015
be these things and remember that the Lord loves you and you should also love others and forgive each other. love makes compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience cohesive and as beautiful as they are. my friends are a beautiful gift from you Lord.
i should hope that i can love as you love me and this is something that must be my daily focus. and i keep thinking about and praying for the people on my list and the events. and tomorrow i just really really pray for the DRG prep and for the calcium imaging. i want to make them both happy about the work, and with the first year project showcase in april FAST approaching... jeez, really fast--i need major magic to happen here. gah.
i know that you make beautiful things and i trust that.
i was actually pleasantly surprised by the meeting with my honors advisor today. she was not excessively patronizing or anything like that which was nice. i love my bible study, i know that much. and i think that in this semester, you will well teach me to know my freshman navigators class and to love them the same. i'm actually thrilled about this opportunity to know them better and to be just shown You in multiple dimensions.
i know that you show your love and attention to us in the coolest ways. perfect unity. with loving others, i think maybe the hardest part comes with know how to express it. i will continue, however, to seek you out and to find your designs.
Colossians 3:12-14 NIV
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12 Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience. 13 Bear with each other and forgive one another if any of you has a grievance against someone. Forgive as the Lord forgave you. 14 And over all these virtues put on love, which binds them all together in perfect unity.
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i should hope that i can love as you love me and this is something that must be my daily focus. and i keep thinking about and praying for the people on my list and the events. and tomorrow i just really really pray for the DRG prep and for the calcium imaging. i want to make them both happy about the work, and with the first year project showcase in april FAST approaching... jeez, really fast--i need major magic to happen here. gah.
i know that you make beautiful things and i trust that.
i was actually pleasantly surprised by the meeting with my honors advisor today. she was not excessively patronizing or anything like that which was nice. i love my bible study, i know that much. and i think that in this semester, you will well teach me to know my freshman navigators class and to love them the same. i'm actually thrilled about this opportunity to know them better and to be just shown You in multiple dimensions.
i know that you show your love and attention to us in the coolest ways. perfect unity. with loving others, i think maybe the hardest part comes with know how to express it. i will continue, however, to seek you out and to find your designs.
Monday, February 2, 2015
necessities
2-2-2015
everything will be made right according to God and his glory and i shall have absolutely nothing to fear. this is so explicit in its meaning. i know that i will be able to work according to the grace of God and his will. i have nothing to worry about. the chemistry exam will go well. the accounting work. spanish class and the debate. i will be able to work through the dorsal root ganglia prep. and in whatever way you have prepared for me with the clinical work.
and my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
needs i don't even know i have yet. for friendship and fellowship. i will be made whole in him.
and i will find a place to live for next year. You, will take care of that need, God. I know.
Philippians 4:19 NIV
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19 And my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
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and my God will meet all your needs according to the riches of his glory in Christ Jesus.
needs i don't even know i have yet. for friendship and fellowship. i will be made whole in him.
and i will find a place to live for next year. You, will take care of that need, God. I know.
Sunday, February 1, 2015
strength and bravery
2-1-2015
Philippians 4:13 NIV
13 I can do all this through him who gives me strength.
You are my strength and enabler and I can have the power through you to not only DO things but I also avoid things and say no. because sometimes there's no option but to say no. declining is sometimes the better choice. to open other doors.
it's hard to make decisions especially considering what's actually fun versus what is... academic or perhaps more wise. but I thank you lord for giving my discretion and helping me to know what is better.
I know you and this is the best relationship I have because everything else springs from my following of your path your straight and narrow road.
in tomorrow may I continue to be reminded of your strength and that you will never leave me alone. I always can turn to you in good and bad and I SHOULD always converse with you--day in and day out. with you around, there's nothing that the enemy can effectively wreck havoc in.
I love you Lord and may that seriously show. may you teach me to be brave. and to proclaim your name and share the good news even when it's hard and to find the right place for me to testify. the right way for me to testify.
here's the line up
1-31-2015
i don't know how this came up.
maybe i was too dead inside to say anything.
but he's leaving.
it's real.
like what?
i just met him.
what is this?
it's not fair. we just started.
i just got to know the man.
why?
life moves fast, Lord. you've shown me that much.
in the last month, things have moved more rapidly than i knew possible or that ever existed.
i've met people. been a thing for a week. and then it was over. and i've gone home.
or in this case, i've known him for five months now. it'll be six when he leaves. and then what?
it was too perfect to be true.
and these verses are ABSOLUTE perfection. there is nothing that i think i needed more than those.
You are everything that i need and should live for and because of you it will be ok. you have life lined up for me, and you have a direction written out, and i have things to learn and ways to grow. you will love me and show me how to love you and others. everything will be ok and somehow i ... will fill your purpose. that's the end game.
tomorrow, i will not worry. i'll just do.
Philippians 4:6-8 NIV
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6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. 7 And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things. | |
maybe i was too dead inside to say anything.
but he's leaving.
it's real.
like what?
i just met him.
what is this?
it's not fair. we just started.
i just got to know the man.
why?
life moves fast, Lord. you've shown me that much.
in the last month, things have moved more rapidly than i knew possible or that ever existed.
i've met people. been a thing for a week. and then it was over. and i've gone home.
or in this case, i've known him for five months now. it'll be six when he leaves. and then what?
it was too perfect to be true.
and these verses are ABSOLUTE perfection. there is nothing that i think i needed more than those.
You are everything that i need and should live for and because of you it will be ok. you have life lined up for me, and you have a direction written out, and i have things to learn and ways to grow. you will love me and show me how to love you and others. everything will be ok and somehow i ... will fill your purpose. that's the end game.
tomorrow, i will not worry. i'll just do.
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