A Burdened Heart

september 4, 2015

i want to kneel before you and forget everything else.  i dont want anything else to burden my heart.  i want my heart to be light as a feather, chasing only you.  but every time i fight it, and i try not to let my thoughts wander.  and every time it works out less than perfectly.  and then i can't help my repeat the same thoughts, over and over.  they plague me like death.  i can't make them leave, yet i can't make the situation any better.  everyone says the same thing--that i should just try and maybe things will work out.  but at my core, when i attempt to make sense of it all, i tell myself you would say no.  i tell myself i think you're in the process of telling me no, not yet.  so i bow before you now, again, asking.

i don't expect to hear an answer.  but i yearn for one all the same.

take me to your heart.