Have You Heard? Because Now You Know.

on behalf of 4-14-2015

the Lord is the ultimate being in the world and make's this world as amazing as it is.  he is my protector and he makes the world go round.  through him, i can go back to the way that i'm supposed to be.  through him i can go back to being me.  the real me.  the me that always moves forward, never backwards.  the me that loves like and can wait to breathe a new breath and move forward into the next day and towards a new day.  i've gone back to loving every second that you've given me and that you are giving me.  thank you for the returned happiness of simply living.

there are so many strange things that i never thought i would come to learn and that i have now come to learn.  i know about some of the ways that relationships work that i never thought i would know of.  i'm glad to find out some things.  but more than understanding some of relationships' facets, i'm hoping that i can give it my own shot at making things work out.  it's not the same i know, but still.  i want to get to the point where i can even try to be the best person possible.  but that doesn't seem to be very soon seeing where things currently stand.

the part that i realized that i have no interest in is the fishing for guys in the first place.  they should be people i already know in the places that i work in.  they shouldn't be arbitrary people that i meet off random places.  but that's not it.

God will never be tired of me or working with me to be the best child of his that i can possibly be.  God is my strength.  God ....

i feel like i'm just repeating the same things that i know about you over and over again.  it's like things aren't changing but they should be?  i mean, i think my understanding should be growing but it doesn't always.  i just want to be..... more in you. <sigh>

the good news should be always shared.  i have the obligation to bring the good news to others.  here's what i think i need to do. make more effort in my relationships and friendships.  i think.... that i need to bring someone to church?  but like don't i first need to find myself at church.  no, yeah.  that's what i need.  i need to pick my place.  i need to figure this out.  i need to be free.