one way

on behalf of 12-12-2014

Acts 4:12 NIV

12 Salvation is found in no one else, for there is no other name under heaven given to mankind by which we must be saved.” there is only one way--through you, and you are the only avenue for life. this is a serious matter to be taken seriously, and honestly, i think that means i really really need to figure out some way to speed up my sharing of you. and i also need to deal with my rush of emotions and my obsessiveness. it needs to not be like this and all the ..... angst needs to be diverted to something normal.  and i know you are the only way, i could divert it all into energy for you. does it work that way? i just cant stop processing him and....now its all like last year all over again except like different. like more. and like im into it. and to the point where im writing about it indirectly in my messages to others: This--an inadequacy of words--it has hit me most strongly in the last few days as I've come to strongly recognize the transient nature of what we are.  I don't mean to be overly contemplative or melodramatic.  That, and I have also been fortunate as only a bystander to the ebb and flow of life and time: that is to say, time hasn't yet taken away ones close to my heart, but around me, close friends have been working through it.  And as a close friend, I have had not only sympathy, but an surge of innumerable other sentiments rushing through me as I endeavor to offer genuine condolences in addition to strength and comfort to those around me.  I say endeavor because more often than not, there is no right thing to say.  When words are lacking--