desperate for desperation

 retrospective studies

But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.

2 Corinthians 12:9

 

in my own weakness and shortcomings, my need for God grows evermore and it is exactly this that paul speaks of.  i noticed this too, but in another way.  and it's true that in desperation we allow ourselves to be given and for our burdens to be given to you so much more.  but at the same time, that does not mean that there are really ever any circumstances under which i don't need you.  it's just my own awareness of that actually constant desperation.  and honestly, by opening my eyes to my own depravity, i think it's for the best in terms of coming to terms with why i need you so much and then continuing to desire to be a light for you with fervor even when it doesnt seem like it so much.

 

because that's the reality of life in this world--that im a sinner, fallen, broken, and in need of salvation from you.  the only one true king and savior of the world.

 

speak to others frequently and don't be afraid of crappy spanish.  talking is the only way to show others your power and grace and how awesome he is in sending people to assist even in their lack of familiarity with the area, and such.