As Straight as an Arrow

I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; 

I will guide you with My eye. (Psalm 32:8)

God will show me where to go and how to do it, it seems. furthermore he is so powerful that he can guide me with just his eye and to be honest MY job is to truly listen look and feel for his desires for me. 

there should not be any question about what to do as a result of the clarity that arises from the holy glory and singleness the  nature and character of there Lord. he doesn't flip flop and his path is as straight as an arrow.

I have two clear jobs with the coming weekend: write letters to you and catch up with bible transcriptions. I should hope that I can make it up reasonably and henceforth be able to keep up with God. prioritizing you, Lord, over whatever other crap that's going on in life... it's a necessary thing--you are the light and the source of my life and spirit and without you. it's just emptiness for nothing.

I amid straight my by own inadequacy--my own failure to keep pace so far. but it's going to going to change and I WILL make it work out. 

father god, thank you so much for everything that you've done for me. your blessings are unbundling and I can't even contain myself for the sale of your goodness. I'm just blown away and it's caused me to foolishly wish to exclaim my blessing but you teach me humility and in that line I should hope that I can learn to keep my mouth shut. shhh. tell Lydia, but others--not necessarily. she can and should be your person!!!! 

I'm not sure how this revelation came about. how in spite of the peaks and pits "exercise" or how, in spite of rose/thorn/buds, I manage to end up feeling this way--disgusted and ashamed of myself, wanting to retract those proud words. they were proud, but they were also expressions sheerly out of the joy of my heart. and that's the spot between a rock and a hard place. I want to share, but I think that deep down inside there's also this element of wanting to show people what I have done and what I'm able to do and the only remedies are to eliminate that feeling from the expression or to completely omit the expression. I would venture so far as to saying that my best option is eradicating the arrogance ALONG with any expression just to be sure. like a preemptive lobotomy to my pride of sorts.

may you be with me in the pursuit of your heart.