Temptation

Teach me to do your will, for you are my God; may your good Spirit lead me on level ground.
Psalm 143:10

I need your help right now. I definitely can't do this on my own. The temptation is too great. I love it. I hate it. I want it. I cannot have it. I read your word, and I am renewed in my strength. I think about your love and the sin that we must abstain from and I am renewed. I think about your Grace and how we must not persist in our sins and I am renewed.

But then, I spend some time with him and I melt and become lost in him charm. In his words. In his voice. In his eyes. And I can only think about how good it feels to be wanted and how much I want to reciprocate.

I pray that you would continue to bring me your strength and sustain me in this trial. I am weak. But through you, I can be strong enough to resist, because you are strong enough.

I never thought that this temptation would be so difficult, but it is. It cuts to my core and it threatens to upset my relationship with you. And that cannot be allowed. Lord, give me strength.