How long?

for he guards the course of the just and protects the way of his faithful ones.
Proverbs 2:8 NIV

Why is it so easy to do wrong and so hard to do right? It is easy for me to decide to fall into sin and just give up because resistance is difficult and feels less satisfying. You, Lord, always pick the harder of two paths. It torments me to have this decision and everyday I struggle with what I am doing. 

Some days are easier than others and I have a less difficult/ time, I would say. No day is easy.

How long will this last? How long will it be like this? There is no answer to that and it is impossible to know. <Sigh>

In the meantime, I can only hope that circumstance placed by you saves me...