Shedding selfishness

on behalf of september 23, 2015

Therefore, as God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved, clothe yourselves with compassion, kindness, humility, gentleness and patience.
Colossians 3:12 NIV
http://bible.com/111/col.3.12.NIV

I have a responsibility to myself.  I must be loving and kind and every good thing just as the land would be were he in this position. he loved so very intensely that there could hardly be doing as to his character of notices. No one is THAT good in the name of selfishness.

Clearly humility, gentleness and patience are my biggest flaws.... I didn't think of it before but even though I might have a decent amount of patience, especially with children, I'm not so sure about it elsewhere. The bigger things are the humility and gentleness.

Humility.... Every time I speak it sounds like I'm apparently in to show off. Boasting is certainly a weakness of mine. Not just that but I am ...prone to selfishness and a desire to center on myself.  For some absurd reason I like to talk about myself.  Most people don't care or will not let me. Most people just go on and on about themselves.... And that's my inclination but I try to ask about others. A lot of the times this means that I end up just listening. Which is valuable.  So what this means is that I.... Need to work on eliminating that feeling of frustration which artists from my saltfish desires and from being unable to fulfill that.

What about gentleness? I'm really not a manifestation of that.  I have so much to work on that note.  I've worked on appearance and nourishing my body well (physically).  I've worked on exercise, though I could certainly do more even.  But that's just the beginning.  The next thing is personality and gentleness of the soul.  That is meekness and a heart for serving.  Thats my next step.  Moving to be like you.  Moving to care less about what people think of me and what they know about me. 

Only you matter. Nothing is for my glory, but your glory.  And that will be how I lose myself to save my soul for you.