A Long Way

on behalf of october 3, 2015

if i love You, you will make your home with me and your spirit lives in me.  i can always be sure of that.  and last night (october 8), i realized that ive made it a long long way.  i'm not there yet.  not by any means.

but the thing is that i'm progressing.  i blinked and i'm progressing.  it took a while.  i dont really think that i DID anything  i only really let time pass.  i dont know if you wanted me to go to phoenix last week.  i don't know how it would have happened ideally.  but i do know that i've finally found my way to you.  closer to you anyhow.

he doesn't pull my heart strings anymore.  i might feel a little, but it doesn't really affect me.  i might think about it, but only very occasionally.  i'm speeding ahead like there's no tomorrow towards something better.  towards you.  you fulfill me.  and all i need to to catch up with you everyday.  i want it to be so ingrained in my life that i thirst and experience withdrawals for you.

fill my life and make me whole.  i can see light.