fountain of God's goodness

on behalf of 3-14-2015

Jude 1:2 NIV
2 Mercy, peace and love be yours in abundance.

these things i hope to embody in full and to learn. i want to grow in the lord but i feel like i have stagnated for some reason in the last few weeks and im not sure what explanation can be offered for this. all that i do know is that i have ceased to be as close. it might be the things like praying everyday for others or like failing to write in my transcribed bible. or maybe it was forgetting my daily devotions this last week in the huff and puff of life. either way, i recognize that those are issues that i can directly address and act to resolve by NOT forgetting them....

but theres something else, i feel that is missing. perhaps dialogue with you more through prayer will resolve this feeling. i'm not totally sure. the fire has gone out though.

maybe i'm doing too many things and forgetting about what matters most in life. you.

i do know this though. i am thankful to you for helping me to see that i must burn a particular bridge. it's dangerous. it could hold me down. it's a bridge i simply can't afford to keep alive because i think something seriously wrong could happen to me if i let it. so it's just plain no good. apart from that i think.. i might just have some soul searching and praying to do. to return to you and loving you with the same fervor as in days past.

blessed is the one who perseveres under trial because having stood the test that person will receive the crown of life that the lord has promised to those who love him. james 1:12

if you love me, keep my commands. john 13:15

i have hidden your word in my heart, that i might not sin against you. psalm 119:11

you will seek me and find me when you seek with all your heart. jeremiah 29:13
^i think this is what i need. i can't be so distracted or burned out by research, necessarily. there are other things that i should be putting my energy into. relationships, namely. with You especially. i get it.

mercy, love, and peace. i could use more of each. from God comes all these things. that i can be sure of. in deepening a relationship with him, i can find and be a fountain of these.