empathy sought for

2-14-2015

Hebrews 4:15-16 NIV
15 For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin. 16 Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.

You know our every struggle in life from having struggled yourself and in that there is true empathy.  In supplication to you, I will find all that I could possibly need in my times of celebration and need, both.

Sometimes I'm not totally sure what I need and I just know that this is not it.  There is more than the life I am currently living.  And, I would say that today and these days lately, I've been seeing you ever more clearly in terms of understanding what it means to wait and being patient about it.  I understand and know, of course, but all the same, it's hard.  And, I don't know that it makes waiting and patience any easier.  Someday.

I don't know why I care or what the matter is with that.  But sometimes someone who is in the physical life that I live who recognizes the same kinds of things I go through daily would be nice.  A best friend who's on par with me and can keep up but also who challenges me and makes me better.  I miss Hamilton.  There were a lot of people like me there.  Well, maybe not a ton that I clicked with, but there was at least one person who was good and that I knew was on the same level as me or better and that went through many of the same journeys as I did during the course of the four years.  I don't see anything like what I'm looking for in him, but I know there was friendship and I miss that here.  I'm not sure that I can find the same here.

But for now, I am going to make the most of every second that you give me to do great things in your name as an undergraduate student.  I'm going to work hard and shine brightly.  And somehow, the details will work themselves out.  You take care of me.