always you

2-6-2015

2 Thessalonians 1:12 NIV
12 We pray this so that the name of our Lord Jesus may be glorified in you, and you in him, according to the grace of our God and the Lord Jesus Christ.

i should hope that in my actions, You can be glorified.  this weekend, i have so many things lined up... and honestly, i have no clue when my homework is going to get done ):  it's kind of ridiculous.  right now, i think i should be sleeping if i don't want to die tomorrow during the clinic.  or if i don't want to fall asleep during the lab party.  i don't know how it's going to go especially since he's coming, but then like she wants to come too.  and i think that they should just suck it up and come now that they're part of the lab, but they never do D:  it'd be way more fun if they just came since they're like part of the group now!  but idk.  it's also all i ever talk about and it's probably starting to get unnerving.  i don't want to be annoying, but i'm just so excited about the lab all the time.  like i literally go everyday and i don't even think i'm there as many hours as i should hope and it's to an almost problematic level.  whenever i'm not in class and it's during regular working hours, i'm there.  that's just how it is for me.  it's my heart and soul.  and i want desperately to advance the projects and results.

i pray everything in your name that it might come about in some way that pleases you.  i have come to understand as i've been growing that things might not turn out the way i hope or plan, but it will be the way that you plan and that matters more.  i can be ok with that.  i might not understand it, but eventually, it might possibly become apparent why some one thing or another has come to pass.

grace.  it's my receipt of that which i absolutely do not deserve.  i have my lab.  they wow me beyond my imagination and i can't believe what my life would be like now without them.  i'm in love with the science and the learning, and it makes me sad when i don't know as much as i should or could.  things have changed for me as i've gotten deeper into the work.  i have new friends who care and want to hang out with me all the time.  it's incredible and thrilling and mind blowing and i love that too.  a relationship with you.  wow.  how lost i should be without it.  my professors and mentors.  i'm looking for new mentors now as some dynamics have changed from my original plan.... but that's fine.  i know that when the time comes next year, you'll help me work my life out.  i won't worry.  you'll take care of me and my future, to be sure.

as long as i focus on you.  so on sunday, no matter what, go to church, self.  God always.