condemned

luke 6:37
there's a certain philosophy that ive taken to having regarding the "sins" of others against me. i can't condemn or judge others else i'd be a hypocrite and the problems will never stop. soo honestly this verse is super duper straight forward and im just obligated to be loving because i have and am sometimes lost in the waves as well.

in application though, i really think just letting mom and dad off the hook is the way to go. its easier on the family dynamics and means i dont really have to talk about our problems. sometimes a surface relationship is sufficient when everyone's totally stressed out and busy. more importantly though i think God would hope for me to honestly hold nothing against them. just ... love. i need to think of something for them before i go off to college i guess. man. its all so rough and ive seen terrible at treating my parents right...particularly in the last day or two ): 

beyond that even though--with other people outside the family. no judgment but pure conscientiousness of others is crucial. i...can only say that i have work to do :P