my destined path

on behalf of 1-27-2015

Ephesians 6:10-18        NIV

10 Finally, be strong in the Lord and in his mighty power. 11 Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes. 12 For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms. 13 Therefore put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, you may be able to stand your ground, and after you have done everything, to stand. 14 Stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around your waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, 15 and with your feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. 16 In addition to all this, take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. 17 Take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God.

18 And pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people.

it's a real fight. I always knew that doing the right things wasn't easy necessarily and this time it involves honoring a commitment made before for working but man. this is what the real world is basically like--where people half to make choices and are compelled to do certain thugs by work pressures. in my particular case, I really would like to just sleep right now but I like CAN'T. the drg prep is waiting for me :O T-T and I need four shifts this month. it's actually becoming a real struggle but I trust you lord to bring me through this time.

and as far as fighting evil with scripture, I honestly think the memorizing is going to be the best way but I'm failing so much at doing that. my mind is lazy and unwilling. it would much rather sleep:( so I pray for a change of heart that might motivate me to love you more. I'm scared to give myself to you completely, I realize in that I'm essentially desperate for sleep though.... maybe rest will fix this misery which is threatening to inhibit my schedule. lord, is this what I'm supposed to be doing with my life right now?