Galatians 5:1 NIV
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1 It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery.
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don't live life like you're a slave because--Christ wiped the slate clean, cliche though that may be. he saved you and so you should experience it. don't be like the rest of the world, ignorant and.... yeah. just be a disciple in every way!!!
it was good to go home yesterday. i needed that. and the sleep. and time away from school in a good bed. and i got time to think about my future and whether or not i can afford to do french. instead of taking the potentially free opportunity to study in germany through the DAAD. now, here's what it looks like. that if my check--wired straight for my leftover un-expensed scholarship things--turns out to be a minimum of the same amount as last semester, then i would be able to definitely afford a semester there by taking just independent study units for NSCS and then maybe doing my leftover gen ed units online. at the moment that sounds like a pretty great idea.... right? anyways, i only had time to consider that last night as i lay awake and restless--not quite ready to just pass out for whatever reason.
also, i am a free soul. i belong to no one but you. but for some reason, in my memory, i still....have a lot of wishes. i wish i had just said it. te quiero? it would have been easy. now i don't know if i will ever get a chance again. that kind of thing only happens once in a lifetime right? maybe i should have gone further. could i have gone further and not gone all the way? i don't really know, but at this point, i just think about him a lot. like yeah, a lot. and i don't know if i really want anything from this, but i think about him a lot and it's probably... well i could be in a slightly more healthy state of mind, i'm sure. i need to do something about this. God--i should be all over you and not...in the past. gah.
i've been catching myself with the language more as i've come home though. that's frustrating that it's harder to avoid, but so far it hasn't come out of my mouth quite yet, and i've altered the words to better options at the last moment every time so far. i still need to catch up on my month or so's worth of unwritten letters and transcriptions... ok, tonight.
it was good to go home yesterday. i needed that. and the sleep. and time away from school in a good bed. and i got time to think about my future and whether or not i can afford to do french. instead of taking the potentially free opportunity to study in germany through the DAAD. now, here's what it looks like. that if my check--wired straight for my leftover un-expensed scholarship things--turns out to be a minimum of the same amount as last semester, then i would be able to definitely afford a semester there by taking just independent study units for NSCS and then maybe doing my leftover gen ed units online. at the moment that sounds like a pretty great idea.... right? anyways, i only had time to consider that last night as i lay awake and restless--not quite ready to just pass out for whatever reason.
also, i am a free soul. i belong to no one but you. but for some reason, in my memory, i still....have a lot of wishes. i wish i had just said it. te quiero? it would have been easy. now i don't know if i will ever get a chance again. that kind of thing only happens once in a lifetime right? maybe i should have gone further. could i have gone further and not gone all the way? i don't really know, but at this point, i just think about him a lot. like yeah, a lot. and i don't know if i really want anything from this, but i think about him a lot and it's probably... well i could be in a slightly more healthy state of mind, i'm sure. i need to do something about this. God--i should be all over you and not...in the past. gah.
i've been catching myself with the language more as i've come home though. that's frustrating that it's harder to avoid, but so far it hasn't come out of my mouth quite yet, and i've altered the words to better options at the last moment every time so far. i still need to catch up on my month or so's worth of unwritten letters and transcriptions... ok, tonight.
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