ephesians 4:31-32
anger bitterness and rage are not to be a part of my emotional repertoire. instead, love.
this weekend has been rough between mom and I. ive resorted to anger and a raised voice much too quickly and themat respect factor took a hit. I... try to be rational about it but I don't realize why's happened and where I am until I'm in the middle of it and then it's hard to get out of that x3 it's certainly possible it's just that getting out requires profuse apologies and backpedaling. it's harsh on pride but pride is to be broken down anyways I suppose. tear down all them walls. nothing to else separate and everything to connect and build and bond.
I must be sure to thank her for waking up early to drive me tomorrow and drop me off for heading out to the foundation in phx and then for the opportunities and that's why i can be standing here now today. verbalize that appreciation and love which is too often tacit and overlooked. I'm leaving too soon and mom deserves that much at least. it's hard but I can do it and owe it to her, I WANT to. the matter is more like whether or not I remember but she rmmbr a so I have no excuse for forgetting tbh. goodbye to rage. hello to patient rationalizations and deliberate consideration.
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