Making up with a friend you have offended is harder than breaking through a city wall.
the struggle is so real.
he may have legitimacy for wing irritated at me but after I've apologized so many times, isn't it enough at some point? I dont know. we have such different points of view and it's ridiculous and stupid and everything and I honestly DID try I make it better but it wasn't going over well and I'm certainly aware of the fact that things weren't really good for him today in the first place but gahh. at some point you would think he would recognize the friendship enough to not accuse me of lying and making up bs and to not take his frustration about other things out on me. that's not really considerate.
what am I supposed to do now? I've attempted to say a lot of smooth it over kinds of things but it clearly didn't work. pray for gods dguodance through this and to help me figure out how to beat resolve this matter--or I guess to decide if it's a friendship worth having. there's a lot of things about the friendship that are semi sketchy and our divergent viewpoints and philosophies make serious conversation weird. maybe we'be outlived the usefulness of the relationship in terms of his liking her and my admiration of his friend.
that's honestly a superbly terrible way to look at the situation... but it's.... pragmatic I suppose.
I dont think god would want that though as that would make me exactly like everyone else he knows--flaky web the going gets tough. definitely not how I wanna approach this.
to God, would you be with me in an attempt to salvage the friendship? that and I'll keep praying as I've learned is best and think to you always.
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